Everywhere I Go There I Am–And So Is My Illusion
It could be anything from any area of our lives. There is a myriad of reactions.
‘I don’t want to look at this. I don’t want to think about this. It shouldn’t be this way. Why is this happening? What did I do to deserve this? Why don’t other people have to deal with this?’
The resistance continues.
‘I’m having a drink. I’m having a smoke. I’m taking a pill. I need to eat something. I’m going shopping. I’m going out to the garage. But I’m not going to look at this.’
The campaign for resistance strengthens.
‘What does my horoscope say? Let me check my e-mail. Let’s go see a movie. I’m going to read a book. Maybe I should play the lottery. But I’m not going to look at this.’
What you then begin to see is that whatever it is—it appears to have its own strategies and it’s relentless. You say that you’re not going to look at it and it says it’s not going away.
In your final attempt, you resist with ‘I’m not dealing with you and you can’t make me!’
Then something inside acknowledges that you’re stuck in the traffic of your thoughts and actions of avoidance, and all you see above you is a red light. You are not going anywhere.
What you are essentially communicating is ’I don’t want to know about you and I don’t want to know about me!’
Of course ultimately the golden moment of truth arrives. ‘I have to face this, whether I like it or not, whether I want to or not, because it’s here and it’s not going away.’
Everywhere I go there I am–and so is my illusion.